The Weeping Willow Tree

Here are 27 signs of high feminine energy: You are nurturing and compassionate You are affectionate Your intuition is your guide You are magnetic You are attractive You are warm and welcoming You are sensual You take good care of yourself It’s easy for you to express love You are creative You are in touch with your feelings You are receptive You are comfortable with your inner darkness You are comfortable with cycles and changes You see vulnerability as a strength You take full responsibility for your life Relationships are the most important for you You create harmonious spaces You are not afraid to destroy what’s out of alignment You are always in the present moment You are authentic You are elegant and graceful You are playful with life You have a feminine essence You have a sisterhood People tell you, you are motherly You see femininity as your strength

I keep getting this 11:11 sign on my phone 🤗💫 if you know..you know!

Feeling: ready for bed Loving: my bestie Last Ate: Strawberry coffee cake Watching: Greenleaf  Meditating: on forgiving & healing Listening: YouTube in background  Thankful: for a full pantry before the cold sets in. Tonight's shadow work.... What am I most afraid of? I can without a doubt say that I am afraid of losing a child. That's a pain I can't imagine. Secondly I am afraid of being alone and thirdly... Snakes. 😳

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..hurt people. That is so true. It's happened to me. Hell, in my past..my younger years I was that hurt person.  No more. I'm not going into another relationship where at every turn they talk about how someone wounded them and they have walls up or are to scared to love. I want and deserve someone to match my vibration and who will love as strong as I do.  I will no longer except red flags 🚩 and hope that I'm just paranoid and second guess myself.  Hurt people, hurt people. Healed people, heal people... So don't shit on them. 

It's painful going through it when you know you were being used. 😭

Feeling: tired and unmotivated  Loving: the sound of rain on my window Eating: a chocolate covered cherry Watching: Greenleaf  Meditating: on forgiving & healing Listening: to the rain and my kids  Thankful:  for TikTok making me laugh Well today's question is what makes me most tense.... I would say that lately it would be when hubby comes home or we've been fighting.  Not to often do I feel relaxed around him. We had a few good times Christmas shopping but being around him most times just brings we anxiety.

Tonight's my first entry and start to working at shadow work.  Currently/Today: Feeling: tired and lonely Loving: that Christmas shopping is done Eating: leftovers from lunch  Watching: Cobra Kai & Greenleaf today Meditating: on forgiving & healing Listening: to my Happy music play list Thankful:  for Jensine- my internet wifey 1. Who am I... (Besides the regular labels of mom, sister) I am love, anxiety, laughter, fear, hope, softness, light, darkness, a silly poem, a deep poem, a romantic comedy, a scary movie, a pen pal letter, a walk in the grave yard. I can't decide if I love more than I fear or the other way around. My hopes in this journey is to be more light than darkness in the end.  Sit with me under the tree.